Jeana

backwardswords @ 2006-08-04T21:40:00

2006-08-05T02:40:00Z

you'll be the victim of your own dirty tricks

calculating infinity

2006-07-02T00:20:31Z

im going to be a mom.
crazy.

:)

2005-11-03T20:48:46Z

im getting a new car for my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HECK YES!

backwardswords @ 2005-10-31T17:49:00

2005-11-02T01:50:54Z

backwardswords @ 2005-10-26T13:31:00

2005-10-27T20:34:37Z

my bed smells like you......and i woke up and thought you were still here.

seriously

2005-10-23T09:36:03Z

i dont know........im sooooooo mad/tired rite now that i dont think this will come out making much sense. i can't stop lisnening to be quite and drive/ acoustic version....it's good.
seriously i dont think i can even type it.......im just sick of people's SHIT.
thee events of tonight just .......fucking cute.
A-matt acting like a totall fucking IDIOT.
B-him telling me about _______ real intentions of being my friend.
C-realizing that 99.9% of guys only talk to you for that reason.
i should be over it by morning. ............
it just pisses me off. thats why i dont like to let "new" people in......beacuse they SUCK.

im going to drink some fucking whiskey or something.

hopefully tomarow is better.

hopefully grrrrr kitty is better tomarow......his niceness is getting scary. he should be trying to escape....and bite me by now.......jeezzzzzzz.

..................the corner of my blanket smells like you.......

and hopefully i find out wether or not i get the house tomarow......i really hope it works out.....beacuse it would be fucking sweeeeeeeeeet. its ssssssssssssssooooooo nice. and ........not in the ghetto. and there 's a garden in the back...one word POPPY. haha. thats all i need. im really glad i met kate...she is one of the most amazing girls i have ever met......although we fight...she still makes me my DINNER!!! haha j/k j/k.

it needs to stop raining so i can fix my car.

yeah bye.

time changes everything.

2005-10-11T22:26:11Z

when will the dirt blanket me and rest my soul?

remembering you.

backwardswords @ 2005-10-09T02:00:00

2005-10-10T09:01:34Z

kmfdm tomarow........yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

backwardswords @ 2005-10-04T21:57:00

2005-10-06T04:58:47Z

but im not this.

backwardswords @ 2005-10-04T21:56:00

2005-10-06T04:58:03Z

p.s. i tend to only write when im pist off.

i don't know what i am to you

2005-10-06T04:54:31Z

i seriously don't know if i can handle being treated like this any longer. i think im worth a little bit more than being treated like this. . .but in your eyes apparently im not. . .im sick of being the ....when no one else is around, or whatever it is that i am to you, and aparently NOT MUCH, beacuse if i was i wouldnt be this FUCKING SECRET. whatever. i'm not disposable. i have feelings. . .it's your fucking loss. seriously paint her fucking face on mine.......and draw your little conclusions.....beacuse i am not that person...i never was.

love,
jeana

a line allows progress a circle does not

2005-09-23T10:15:44Z

today i promise to buy myself a year lightwork pass.

balls.

2005-09-23T08:56:40Z

dear livejournal,
sorry i've neglected you.
i promise it wont happen agian.

love,
me.

backwardswords @ 2005-07-07T18:49:00

2005-07-07T22:50:39Z

last night was the best night EVER!!! case of corona&lime. breaking and entering to go swimming!!!!!!!

p.s your awesome!

have yet to sleep

2005-07-05T10:58:29Z

i am the worste at writing whats on my mind. especially in this little window....beacuse in reality this little box doesnt mean shit. to anyone. i feel like everyone i know takes advantage of me in some form or another. lover or friend/foe...whats it matter? whats a fucking label anyways? and why does it provide some form of security? im am so tired and confused rite now that i dont think this post will make much sense to anyone....i just want to get away from all this. syracuse. and everyone thats around me at this point in my life. everyone is so fucking self centerd...its sickening.. i thought that mabye by moving out of my parents would solve a vast majority of my problems. but i guess not.

backwardswords @ 2005-06-29T15:28:00

2005-06-29T19:28:31Z

im so sick of people playing games.

wake up.

2005-06-29T05:53:42Z

u are my only girl but your not my owner girl.
you are my only girl but your not my owner girl

backwardswords @ 2005-06-21T21:53:00

2005-06-22T04:54:24Z

you are amazing...

backwardswords @ 2005-06-17T22:35:00

2005-06-18T05:36:16Z

i completly recked my saab...to the point of no return...:(
but i got another one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

backwardswords @ 2005-06-12T00:33:00

2005-06-12T07:34:03Z

can someone please buy this for me?
thanks ;)
http://www.saabnet.com/tsn/class/ci.php3?ph=050531gwoll

HEAT STROKE

2005-06-09T20:40:14Z

i love how me and my boss think of different ways to kill, torture people cause were bord. :)
i love my job.
the end.

backwardswords @ 2005-06-08T13:19:00

2005-06-08T20:28:38Z

see the animal in the cage u built. are your sure what side your on?
better lok him to closely in the eye. are your sure what side of glass ure on?
see the safety of the life you've built. everything where it belongs.
feel the hollowness inside your heart. and its all rite where it belongs.
what if everything around you isnt quite what it seems?
what if all the world you think you know is an alabrate dream.
and if you look at your reflection. is that all you want to be?
what if you could look rite threw the cracks ...would you find yourself....find yourself affraid to see. what if all thats inside your head, just creations of your own. devils and your gods. all the living and the dead. and you really aughta know. u can live in this illusion. u cant choose to believe. u keep looking but you cant find the words how your hidding in the trees....what if everything around you isnt quite as it seems. what if the world you used to know is an elabrate dream. if you look at your relflection is that all you want to be. what if you could look through the cracks. would you find yourself affraid to see?

backwardswords @ 2005-05-31T23:16:00

2005-06-01T06:16:52Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

backwardswords @ 2005-05-24T18:44:00

2005-05-25T01:44:38Z

What did YOU do?

backwardswords @ 2005-05-24T18:42:00

2005-05-25T01:42:35Z

you said your lifes like a bad movie. i said mabye the directors turned on us.